Emotional Energy

2020.

It has been a true rollercoaster of emotion no matter who you are, what you do professionally, or what stage of your life you are facing.

This October, our family finds that our emotional energy is stretched this. Losing our Gran, two close encounters in the ER, and a visit later this evening remind us that health is a true priority and a gift.

COVID19 scares us, isolates us, and connects us all at the same time.

When you try to hold it all together, sometimes it is clear how the true disconnect can somehow combine to be different from what you expected. Yet somehow, all that you need.

Hold your love ones close, be brave, and make today incredible.

Grief at Nine

Today, we found this beautiful expression Kelsey wrote about her grandmother. What a tribute.

“Gran always told us stories, but now it is my turn to keep hers alive. Some may she is a mom, mother in law, or sister. That is the best part. She can do all those things, but the thing that I think of her as is a grandmother. Gran was an amazing dinner to a sleepover host. And overall, she had the best quizzes. Even though we can’t see her, I know she is in here today. Gran would want us to party for her and she would never want to see the shred of a tear because that is how she would have wanted it. No pain. An although she would have wanted to live longer, she had done all the things she needed to do in this world.

She was the best Gran. She always let us have whatever we wanted and she always had great stories (even though not all of them were true). We all love Gran and sure, we want to see her again. I am going to tell you how I see her… I see her when I look up because she is in all of our minds. You can see her everywhere you go. Yes, I am sad, but I can deal with it when I am surrounded by family. And I do have a lot of good memories with her, and I bet so do you. No matter how far you think she is, you won’t know she is here with you, in your mind, spirit, and in real life. I say this every day in my head because it is the right timing. And, it is a quote from Gran, “You have got to be kidding me.”